You’re not alone

I want to find other people like me. I want to find the ones who go about their lives like they’re normal, like there’s nothing special or different about them. The ones who go to work and school and go about their day like they don’t have a million different things on their mind.

I want to find the secret outcasts, the ones who never quite felt like they fit in. The ones who speak more eloquently on paper even on their worst days than they ever do in conversation.

The ones who curl up with their laptop at night and create infinity with their fingers. The ones who scribble notes onto a napkin in the middle of restaurants. The ones who write hundreds of stories and thousands of pages they’re too self-conscious to dream of sharing with anyone else because they’re afraid of rejection, of mockery and ridicule.

The ones who dream of more… of endless possibilities.

The creators, the dreamers, the thinkers, the wishers, the imaginers.

The ones who, like me, fall in love with people and places that never existed outside the reality we live in every day.

I’d love to find a way to bring them out to play, even if it’s within the safe black and white confines of the world wide “why not”. I’d love to make them dare to think of “what if”. To show them that there are others out there like them, dreaming, writing, painting, singing…


To show them that they are not alone.

I want to share my secret worlds with them; I want to share the vision, the dream. I want to reach deep inside them and make them feel. I want to make YOU feel.

I want the interaction, the passion, the energy. I want to give them a place to come and be inspired to create, to share, to fuel their passions and walk away feeling better.

I want to show you that it’s not as scary as you think it is. Don’t get me wrong– I’ve always been an introvert. To this day, I’m still shy… at first. But once people get to know me, I’m a royal smart-ass, sarcastic, love to laugh and dance and sing and have fun. I’m a nerd and I love nerd things, and an all around goofball. I’m a card-carrying member of more than a couple of fandoms (and no, if I don’t know you personally, I’m not telling you what they are, though as you get to know me, you’ll more than likely figure it out at some point haha.)

The thought of going public, of putting myself out there, my writing, my face, my voice, is one of the scariest things I’ve ever done in my life. And though I’ll admit the video logs and sharing my feelings through my blogs are getting easier as the days pass, as the numbers continue to go up I still feel that stab of nervous fear every time I go to post a video, blog, story, drabble.

I hope I never lose that feeling, because that feeling keeps me in check. It keeps me humble.

If you make your way here, and you find yourself feeling better at knowing you’re not alone– that there’s other people out there like you, like us— then I’m glad. That’s why I’m here. If my scaring the hell out of myself and putting myself out there makes you feel a little less afraid at the thought of reaching out and finding understanding and a little bit of peace and a sense of belonging, then I’m glad. And I honestly hope you find it in yourself to reach out and let me know if I helped you.

I know how scary it can be to put yourself out there, your face, your picture, your name, your words. The world’s a big place, and I know not everyone out there is as accepting or understanding as we wish they were. And I’m ready for that. At least, I hope I am.

So I understand if you want to comment on my work, to share your ideas about it and your thoughts and that maybe you feel nervous at the thought of putting it out there for everyone to see. I know that feeling all too well. That’s why I understood from the start that making a separate email where any of you could contact me away from the public eye to tell me what you thought or to introduce yourself to me would hopefully make you feel better, safer, and more at ease.

You’re not alone. You never were. And if that thought makes you feel better at knowing it, then I’m glad.

About avsongbird

I'm a housewife, an amateur writer and blogger, and the stepmother of three boys. I have four dogs. I love animals, I love to garden, and I love to crochet. I love movies, music, and books. I love to cook. I'm open-minded and creative and imaginative, and I'm an avid reader. I find inspiration in practically everything, and I love nothing more than to inspire such things in others, if I can.
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